Friday

So today is August 28th..3 more months to go till I see B again...It doesn't sound long but it's easier said than done...Brando is walking more and more...He took 8 steps today and he pulled himself up to do that too...I'm so happy for him...Well, today was my first day of lab and i loved it so much...My professor is so cool and he kept me focussed the whole 3 hours I was there...Then I went to Psychology 203 and that went by fast...Bio 210 lecture was good too, we have a quizz Mon so I need to start studying tonite...I felt like a taxi driver today, but it was okay I guess...I really can't imagine being alone though for another 6 months after this...at what point do you decide to just get used to it and start living your life w/out them? I never wanted to get to the point where I became used to him being gone...I'm not there yet, and even though it still hurts, I'm glad it does...

I had a problem w/ my bank account today=( and everytime I called I could not get through to anyone...B paid my ring off too=) He's so sweet...The weird thing is that every time I look it at I don't see our marriage...I think about how much groceries I could have gotten for my family w/ the money...or I think about how I could have paid for tuition for Gabs w/ it...or put that money down towards my car...It's not like I didn't have a beautiful ring before...I actually miss that ring so much...I resembled something...and I feel that with this ring we were both just thinking "bigger is better", but it's not...There was sentimental value w/ my first ring...B was working 2 low paying jobs and saved up for months to get me a beautiful ring...I married him in that ring... What memories do I have w/ this ring now...None! I went to Zales w. my mom to pick it up and put it on myself....I am very lucky to have a husband who wants the best things for me, but... I dunno...