Goodnite

I am going to keep this short and sweet...had a long day and Gabs wants me to sleep w/ her, she's not feeling well...

Today PSY class was cancelled so I went to Target and went to Wal Mart for a few groceries...I am going to be studying for the whole day tomorrow...exam on Wednesday...

I had some beef jerky for a snack today...Water....Lemon Tea Crystal Light...and I had 2 filets of Tilapia marinated in worchestchire & teriyaki and a sprinkle of lemon pepper and a side of steamed veggies....I didn't get a chance to weigh myself though....

G'nite...

Sorry

Sorry it's been so long since i've updated my blog..I have been pretty busy with midterms and tests and quizzes and the kids...You know when there is one thing there is always one hundred more things going on...First of all, I am very proud to announce that I have had a change of heart that I have been waiting for a long time for...I am very happy to feel that kind of love in my life again...I don't know how I lived without it...

So I haven't been to my doctor for a weigh in for about 3 weeks this Thursday, but I am going this week on Thursday hopefully...My kids had an appointment for their flu shots last Thursday, which was a big mistake for Brando...He has been sick since he got the shot...He didn't eat for 2 days and cried a lot; plus he's still teething...I don't think I am going to get the 2nd shot for him.. On Tuesday I applied for all of our passports, Finally! Also I made a 92% on my a&p midterm! I was happy even though it should have been higher since I changed some of my answers...I'm happy though...It's been cold here the last few days so I've tried to keep the kids bundled up...

Okay, so I've been pretty good with the eating...I've eaten a lot of salmon the last weeks and veggies...I am so glad that I haven't had soda in about 2 months too! I ate a lot yesterday, but I am not going to obsess over it...I've been walking the kids outside at night too! I love it and they love it so we all win! I hope it's not too cold tonite so we can do it again...I've weighed myself at home and the scale says 179 lbs...that's 24 lbs so far=) I am halfway there!

40 days till the love of my life finally comes home...that means i can probably lose about 10 pounds before he comes home=) I hope he notices...He'll be so into the kids, which is fine... and this time I am not going to make a move on him...He'll make his move when he's ready...Last time he came home I was all over him...and I got prego the first time..haha...Well, time to get ready for school...Later!

Weigh In

It was confirmed today...I've lost 16 lbs...I am not too happy about it...I think that it's just weird... I haven't even started exercising yet...but I am starting...I wanted to take the kids for a walk today but I couldn't because I was studying for hours...I had to take Gabs to my in laws to sleep there so i could study more...My mom is watching brando tomorrow...I'm tired...G'nite..

About 3 weeks in...

Okay ,I am really confused...I don't understand how i'm losing the weight...I'm hardly doing anything...I checked my weight today, but it was after I ate a spinach salad w/ mushrooms, cherry tomatoes, an egg w/out the yolk, and broccoli...and i topped it off w/ 2 lemon wedges...and a water...I've had a lot of water today...I've been sweating so much...I hate it...I went to school and had another water...I didn't have any shakes today..I think I'm done w/ them...It doesn't do anything...I am going to see if I can sell them back or something...I lost 2 lbs today and I seriously think it's from the sweat...I am going to talk to the doctor about this...I am worried...So what happens when I get off the pills...am I going to gain weight from drinking water...I went to pick up the kids about 3 hours after lunch and I had 2 pieces of adobo and a little bit of rice...about a size of my palm...I have been getting headaches since Monday too...This only happened to me once when I first started the adipex...I am going to start working out next week...Maybe 3 times a week...

My surgery was 6 days ago and I felt better since yesterday...I know I have a follow up on the 14th I think...I still need to see my ob/gyn cause I have mirena and I have my period for almost 2 weeks now...So I just weighed myself...I am 187 lbs...That's a total of  16 lbs in 3 weeks....

UPDATE

Okay...So I had my laparoscopy on Thursday afternoon...I don't remember them even putting me to sleep... I woke up and I was in a lot of pain so the nurse gave me something...I threw up a lot that day, but it got better...The pain hasn't really gone away though...I am taking Oxycodone and 4 Ibuprofen every 4 hours...It knocks me out too...B's mom has Gabs for the second night in a row... It helps out a lot cause I can sleep through the night...I wish I was back to normal already..My diet is non existing right now and I've actually gained 4 lbs in this week...I'm not going to the restroom regularly...I'll blog again later...

Monday is Gabs birthday=)

Day 12

I couldn't blog this weekend...It was crazy...On Saturday, well Sunday, I went to the ER because my upper stomach was hurting sooooo bad...It turned out to be gall stones and I need to have my gallbladder removed...I have never felt so much pain in my whole life...it was worse than labor pains...I thought I was going to die because the pain was so bad I almost fainted...Well, Saturday I was fine...I went to a movie w/ Lisa and saw Love Happens...Then i went to my mom's house and ate a fish filet and spinach....for dinner I had two chicken thighs w/ marinade...Around 10 pm is when my pain started...Well, I am having surgery on Thursday and my mom has been driving me around...My sister slept at my house last night and since I've been drugged up, it helped a lot...The doctor gave me Hydrocodone and I love it...I actually had morphine at the ER...it was soooooo awesome how fast it worked...I take the meds every 6 hours...B can't make it home because he can't get his passport...I wish he was here...but i can't do anything about it...Yesterday I didn't eat at all, but today I had a bag of steamed veggies, 2 crackers, 3 pieces of turkey from a lunchables, and half of the roast beef and cheese from a sub...and I had a popsicle...I am not a good mood.. I will probably blog again when I feel better...

Day 9

I totally forgot to blog yesterday...i was kind of busy...I went to my weigh in...I was really happy because i lost 10 pounds in one week...but my happiness ended quickly when the doctor brought out my blood work...I am border line diabetic and I was prescribed glucophage....Then the dr. told me that I was at high risk of heart disease...I am 26 years old...I have two kids and a husband...I don't want to leave them...I decided I am not only doing this for B anymore, I'm doing this for everyone...I am not going down like that...I switched over to the modified plan which is 3 shakes and 1 meal...I also have snacks in between of course...but I feel like i've been so busy I don't even have time for the shakes...Yesterday, I had to study and then go to church and it was B's brother's birthday so i didn't really get a chance to eat anything until it was almost bed time...I had a pack of the SteamFresh Veggies...I ate today...I had a shake for breakfast and lunch, and then I had about 5 pieces of broccoli that was steamed...I also had a small chicken breast filet tonight..I am on my regla so I am so cranky...=( I feel bad for my sisters and mom cause I hardly talked...I'm calling M now to tell her I wasn't mad...Gabs didn't take a nap all day..She slept at my m.i.l. house last night and she said Gabs was really good today...Ty wasn't there cause Gem was off...Gabs likes when she has Lola all to her self...Then we visited my mom since I picked up A from school...

Got an 85 on my A&P quiz today...I'm happy cause it was REALLY hard...

B wants to go to the PI again...It's always off and on...It's going to cost over 5000 for the family to go...I am sad cause I wanted to use that $ to pay off the stuff for B's car...We'd only stay for 12 days if we do go though...

Day 7

I can't believe I've done this for 7 days...It's not as bad as I thought it would be because of the phentermine I think...I don't know...I wish I could do one more week of this profast, but it's too expensive...I am going back tomorrow and getting on the 3/1 plan...Today I had a shake for breakfast w/ my pills...Then I went and got a Blackened Steak Salad, but didn't eat anything but

1 1/2 pieces of steak and some lettuce and water...Then i had a water at school...I had another shake for dinner...I had 1 bit of pancit...I ate 6 small shrimp for dinner...not filling...and then had a chocolate shake...

Tomorrow I weigh in..Wish me luck!

Day 6

Well, today was not a good day...not because of the fasting, but because of other things...I am having a hard time with one of my classes and Gabs wasn't having a good day either...It'll be better tomorrow...

So, I woke up and made a shake...i can't even remember what kind it was=) and then I dropped the kids off and had a shake to go...I had a water at Wal Mart...Went to eat and had another water...I couldn't eat anything though...I had another shake when I came home around 3 o'clock...I ate half a turkey breast slice...water...and my last shake was around 5...It's almost 9PM...I don't think i'll have another shake tonite... I have hardly any appetite... I don't think it has anything to do with the shakes or the water though...It's the Adepix that the dr. prescribed me...If i could get that prescribed, I'd be fine... I am going to try to find a way...

One good thing that happened today...my agenda is ready=) and I finally sent B another package...

Day 5

This is going to be quick because Gab wants me to sit and watch KaiLan with her... I woke up this morning and drank a shake and took my meds...I left around 10 oclock and took a shake with me to go...I drank 2 bottles of water at school and felt like my bladder was going to explode at one point...I ate half a broiled spot fish at my in laws...then i ate my salad again, but put salmon on top instead of chicken.. I was tired...I ate 1 piece of turkey breast...I also had a popsicle today...I had a shake around 8 pm also...i weighed in today at 196.8...I don't feel or look any different..so just because the scale says that, it doesn't mean anything to me...I was thinking of going on Slim Fast cause it'd be cheaper but wouldn't come with the vitamins and the Phentermine...I love that stuff...It's great...I don't have too many cravings and my heart doesn't beat so fast...like other otc diet pills...I have an appointment on Thursday, but I don't have the money yet...

Well, that's it for now...G'nite...

Day 4

Today was my 4th full day of the Pro Fast diet...I have been a little crampy, but that could be my regla...I woke up around 8am and took my pills and tried to have a shake, but I couldn't because I wasn't hungry....I went to church and had another shake around 1 o'clock...I stayed at my parents house and around 2:30 went over to my in laws house...I had 2 pieces of chicken...maybe 1 oz..at the most...and 6 pieces of cyote veggies...I also had a pink lemonade drink, around 5....I just came home and it's 7 oclock now...I decided to have dinner tonite...I had one grilled chicken breast, which is about 6 oz and a small handful of spinach, 2 tomato wedges, and 4 slices of mushroom.... I was actually full and still had 2 pieces of chicken left, and I ate it, I know I shouldn't have though...I am drinking ice water with my salad....I will not be eating anymore tonite and if I do get hungry, I'll have a shake..My mom gave me something to crush my ice...

So, I was a little worried because I read online that a woman recently died after this crash diet... how is it called a crash diet...I don't really understand that...The article says it was unhealthy that she only had about 500 calories a day, which is what I'm doing...I am going to bring that up do my doctor tomorrow...I weighed myself today...I don't know, I should not have done that...I am down 5lbs...It doesn't make a difference though...It's just water weight...

This weekend was interesting because I spent time with both families...Here are pics of my new Louis Vuitton books...I love them...They're so interesting...

Hardest day

Today was the hardest day so far...I feel like such a wimp too...I just keep talking to myself and saying that if I can't do this I will never do...I woke up, had a shake and took my pills...Then I went to my nephew's soccer game...I had two bottles of water there...Then I went to the PO and then to the commissary with my lil sister...I had another bottle of water...and a shake...I had to stop by the mall to pick up some makeup i pre ordered a while back and my lil sister bought bourbon chicken which is my favorite...it smelled so good...I came home after an hour at my parents house and put my kids to sleep...Had another shake...Then off to my in laws house where i had a piece of fish which was very small about the size of my palm and there was hardly meat in it...maybe about 3 oz or 4 at the most...and then i had 1 cherry tomato there too...it was cut in 1/4 ths.. I went to my moms house and ate some veggies... but only a little...I came home and 1 piece of a 3 gram turkey slice...This was the most i've eaten since Wednesday...I feel like I've done bad, but really it wasn't too much...but still...i don't think I should be eating like this...I can't believe that I can have a sugar free popsicle because they are soooo good...30 calories but 11 grams of carbs...so i didnt eat it...i wanted some food today though...i think because everyone around me was eating really good food today...i just sat down and i'm about to study for bio and i have a bottle of cold water with me...i'm not going to give in...Tomorrow...i am going to double up een more of the water...

48 hours of fasting

Day 2 of fasting...I had a shake at 6:30 AM Vanilla flavor, which was not bad at all... I had another shake around 9:30 AM but switched it to Strawberry... I got home from school around 3:30 and drank another shake, but it was Chocolate...I drank plenty of water in between...I went to the restroom a lot more today than I did yesterday...I ate 3 Shrimp today...Around 9:30 I drank another shake, mint chocolate, and a little bit of the chicken noodle soup....I feel okay, but not very full either...This weekend is going to be hard..At least I have a lot of studying to do, so that should keep me busy... I have a quiz Monday...

On another note...Gabs and I went to Mommy and Me Tea Time at the Little Gym today and it was sooooo much fun....It was nice to see her have a lot of fun like that... Brando has a black eye from falling off the bed..I feel so bad! 

Good Night and Good Fasting...

First Day Update

Just thought I'd give an update on how the very first day went...I did not eat anything all day accept for the Food Supplements...I was not hungry all day until around now, it's 9:30...I am hoping I can fall asleep...It's a good thing that there is no food in the house! =) I have 6 more days to go...I do not feel sick or feel like I'm starving...I feel good about it...I think if I can get past the first 3 days, it should get easier....

Weight Loss

Today I start my 7 day fast...I really hope it works out okay...I haven't been happy with my weight since I had my son...I wish it were easy to lose weight...I went to my first appointment at the metabolic medical center...the people were very nice and helpful...the doctor prescribed me an phentermine and about 5 or 6 vitamins to make sure I get enough nutrients while I fast...It's 4PM and i've had 1/2 a pill, all vitamins, and 2 shakes , and 3 bottles of water...I am supposed to drink a lot of water while fasting...After my first week I am supposed to add back 2 meals a day and 2 shakes a day...There is a strict diet plan...I will let you know all about it when i start...I am so anxious...I wish it were already 4 months from today and I can see how I look and see if it works...I just want to look "okay" for B when he comes home...I have 12 weeks till he comes home and that is enough time to lose enough weight for him to notice...I am extremely obese and you know what B said when I told him I'm fat..."No, you're not fat!" it's so sweet of him to lie..I am sooooo big...I don't even see myself in the mirror anymore....I am tired of being sad about it and I am going to do something about it...I hope I can do it!!! Today is my MIL's birthday and there is Lechon, and Ribs and Pancit and Publix Cake...If I can get past this, I can get past anything!!! Here it goes...Here's my body!! I hope we'll see results....I weighed in at 203 lbs...The heaviest I've ever been my whole life...I can't believe I'm posting this picture! I hope nobody reads my blog!

Gab had gymnastics today and for the first time, she stayed in the room the whole time...She played well and did a good job today...I hope she keeps having fun and makes friends...She participated today more than she's ever done so before...We're going to a tea party there at The Little Gym on Sept 11th...My mom bought her a Snow White dress because you're supposed to dress like a princess...I can't wait to see her in it...It's going to be so much fun!! They are going to be giving  away a birthday party and 2 rounds of golf at Wild Dunes...and have door prizes and Cupcakes is catering... Gab will love it! Wish B was here cause Dads are invited too!

Went shopping today with my sisters, nephew, & daughter for groceries...It was pretty fun...Then after the kids had a long nap...Me, Mom, & Sis went shopping...That was kinda fun too...My mom bought Gabs birthday gifts...She bought her about 10 outfits, mostly dresses for church...They are so cute too! It was really nice of her to do that...Mari got 2 dresses, under wear, a bag, and clothes for Phillip...I had to buy a gift for someone who's baby shower i missed a few months ago, she's had her baby since then...I am such a bargain shopper...I got her a porcelain picture frame for all the months leading to a year, a bathrobe, a 5 piece outfit, and shoes for 23$...I also had to get some socks for dress shoes...My mom gave me about 5 dresses today from her closet and they are great, comfortable and loose...I hardly got a chance to talk to B today =( I wish he'd come online and chat so I can fall asleep...

I used my Monogram Speedy 25 today...that was the first time in a while...I still love it though.. My sister brought it in the house and it was the first time I saw it on someone else...It looked so good on her...I love that bag...It looks so small and holds soooo much..It is truly a classic purse...The only thing I don't like about it is that the handles are starting to turn that honey patina, but they're uneven...I wish i had the 25 in Damier Ebene...but since I have it in the 35, I don't think that would make sense...I wish I could sell the 35...but I also use that purse for travel...It holds soooo much...Seeing that purse on my sister made me really wish I had the money to buy her a Louis Vuitton for her wedding....She likes the monogram speedy 25 and the monogram neverfull mm...She deserves one...every girl deserves a Louis...

~LV new book released 9-10-09

I started collecting LV on my 1 year wedding anniversary...My first was the musette tango and I loved it! B worked a full week to buy it for me=)...I didn't get another LV till 2 years later...but since then my collection has grown...Most of my purses were surprises from B...The only ones that I did pick out myself were my Damier Speedy 35, Petit Bucket, Wilshire, and pochettes.... I didn't put pics of my extender or MC key and change holder...I ended up returning the sunnies too...My flat nose couldn't keep them on=(...I love the quality of LV purses...My bags have been used and have held a lot of things....I love the feel of the leather on LV purses...I love how the damier ebene always looks brand new, but I always end up falling back on the monogram...I guess because it's a classic...Some ppl say that they hate monogram cause it's screaming LV...well, to me so does Damier...But I don't mind it...I love Louis Vuitton...I also have fallen in love with vernis.. It's so pretty in real life too...I really want a Brentwood, but it's soooo expensive...Maybe next year....After I graduate I am going to buy B a TL or whatever car he wants, and then I am going to start my luggage collection, since I plan on traveling!

My other beauties

LV

The story behind my African Queen Limelight Clutch...I had been obsessing over this purse since I first saw it...B liked it, so it made me like it even more...Well, it was sold out everywhere and I saw it at a local LV wine tasting/benefit...I told my SA that I couldn't purchase it at the moment and that I would call the next day and see if it was still there...Just my luck, it was gone...The store manager and the website told me that there was no way to get one...There were actually 40 ppl wait listed for it too, but they could put me on a list if I wanted...I declined...So about 2 weeks later my SA calls me to tell my that there was a problem with some store credit that I had with them...DH told me to hurry and go because I needed to get it straight...So I went downtown, in the rain...and I was soooooo cranky...I was thinking that if there was problem they couldn't fix that I would start shopping at another store....When I walked in my SA went to the back and came back with a big bag....She said, "your husband has been very bad!" and gave me the bag...In the bag was a note she printed and attached to a beautiful card...It was my bag..The store manager and my SA pulled some strings and got my purse because DH said he had to get it for me! Well, that's my story...i cried at LV that day!

Friday

So today is August 28th..3 more months to go till I see B again...It doesn't sound long but it's easier said than done...Brando is walking more and more...He took 8 steps today and he pulled himself up to do that too...I'm so happy for him...Well, today was my first day of lab and i loved it so much...My professor is so cool and he kept me focussed the whole 3 hours I was there...Then I went to Psychology 203 and that went by fast...Bio 210 lecture was good too, we have a quizz Mon so I need to start studying tonite...I felt like a taxi driver today, but it was okay I guess...I really can't imagine being alone though for another 6 months after this...at what point do you decide to just get used to it and start living your life w/out them? I never wanted to get to the point where I became used to him being gone...I'm not there yet, and even though it still hurts, I'm glad it does...

I had a problem w/ my bank account today=( and everytime I called I could not get through to anyone...B paid my ring off too=) He's so sweet...The weird thing is that every time I look it at I don't see our marriage...I think about how much groceries I could have gotten for my family w/ the money...or I think about how I could have paid for tuition for Gabs w/ it...or put that money down towards my car...It's not like I didn't have a beautiful ring before...I actually miss that ring so much...I resembled something...and I feel that with this ring we were both just thinking "bigger is better", but it's not...There was sentimental value w/ my first ring...B was working 2 low paying jobs and saved up for months to get me a beautiful ring...I married him in that ring... What memories do I have w/ this ring now...None! I went to Zales w. my mom to pick it up and put it on myself....I am very lucky to have a husband who wants the best things for me, but... I dunno...

Bags

I am such a freak when it comes to purses..mainly Louis Vuitton bags too...Lately I have cheated though...I've been looking at Gucci, Balenciaga, & Burberry...I feel like such a trader...I always have said that I would never buy Gucci because of the way I was treated in their store once...But they're so much cheaper and some of their bags are nice..B-bags look so soft and I am so loving the Giant Day...and Burberry is cheap and I found a great bag for school on Neiman Marcus's website..

My Current Wishlist for LV: I know I can't get them, but it's a "wish" list...

Galliera PM in Monogram

Trevi PM

Roses Neverfull

Brentwood in Amarante 

Slightly Denim in Noir

I used to want the Mahina L in Noir or Gris, Vernis Alma MM in Pomme, & Boetie MM, but I don't think I could justify having a 2,000 purse...If I had to pick my fav 3 out of my wish list it'd be the Galliera, Trevi, Brentwood...I think..hahaha...I really like the Neverfull Roses too...

I wish I could take a pill to make my obsession go away...

LAB

I really should be trying to get some sleep because tomorrow morning I have my first lab for Bio 210...I am really excited about it...I love school and learning...I really wish I was like this when I was younger...I'd be finished with school now...It's amazing how much having kids change your outlook on life...I never wanted to go to college before I had children...Now, I can't imagine them growing up and seeing me work a dead end job...I really want them to look up to me...I can't really say that I'm going to school for the money, I really just want to do something with my life and show my kids that their mama is somebody and can do more than the dishes, laundry, and cook...and the other reason why I am doing it is because I need a plan B...If anything happened to Bobby or if one day he decided he didn't want to be w/ me (what are the chances of that right), but you just never know...or if he gets too sick one day to work...I need to have a job to help with the bills...I love being a stay at home mom though...Sometimes I think that after I graduate I will take a year off and hang out with Brando before he goes to school...Gabs might need help with homework and where will I be??

So this blog jumped around today and I am such a yo yo when I blog...=) G'nite...