Hardest day

Today was the hardest day so far...I feel like such a wimp too...I just keep talking to myself and saying that if I can't do this I will never do...I woke up, had a shake and took my pills...Then I went to my nephew's soccer game...I had two bottles of water there...Then I went to the PO and then to the commissary with my lil sister...I had another bottle of water...and a shake...I had to stop by the mall to pick up some makeup i pre ordered a while back and my lil sister bought bourbon chicken which is my favorite...it smelled so good...I came home after an hour at my parents house and put my kids to sleep...Had another shake...Then off to my in laws house where i had a piece of fish which was very small about the size of my palm and there was hardly meat in it...maybe about 3 oz or 4 at the most...and then i had 1 cherry tomato there too...it was cut in 1/4 ths.. I went to my moms house and ate some veggies... but only a little...I came home and 1 piece of a 3 gram turkey slice...This was the most i've eaten since Wednesday...I feel like I've done bad, but really it wasn't too much...but still...i don't think I should be eating like this...I can't believe that I can have a sugar free popsicle because they are soooo good...30 calories but 11 grams of carbs...so i didnt eat it...i wanted some food today though...i think because everyone around me was eating really good food today...i just sat down and i'm about to study for bio and i have a bottle of cold water with me...i'm not going to give in...Tomorrow...i am going to double up een more of the water...